Positive people

Aku rasa rakan2 sefakultiku dah makin ok...boleh kerja as a team...boleh pulun siapkan keje bersama..bg2 cadangan..memang kene ada bnyk sesi hands on lg lps ni...aku pun dah suarakan hasrat nak apply sambung belajar..so..sesape gantilah aku nanti..heheh..aku rasa lps ni budaya kerja kami akan semakin ok..insyaAllah.. Esok nk pi kl..kerja sambil bercuti sambil restock brg..heheh..pehtu balik kontan..kedah x sure balik lg ke tak..tgk kewangan..aku perlukan cuti..huhuh..pehtu kita balik keje sungguh2 naaa...bnyk mende nk kene pulun..

Dugaan

On the way nak pi bernege arini... Tetibe tayar bunyi lain macam je... Huhuh..terpaksala bwk pi bengkel terus sebelum melarat... Macam tau2 je tuan dia nak dpt duit tunggakan tau.. Heheh...takpela... Xde rezeki nk berniaga arini..

Kenaikan gaji

Assalamualaikum... I believe that there are non muslim is reading my blog..heheh... Semalam dah cek slip gaji...walaupun dah kira dah sebelum ni...saje nak tau..oh ye perlu diingatkan bahawa bila gaji naik..potongan kwsp juga naik..income tax juga naik ( tak penah bayo pn lg)...nanti kemahuan juga bertambah...huhuh...mari plan apa nak buat dgn kenaikan gaji ni...perlu buatbsaving tetap ni...setakat ini saving tidaklah begitu tetap...huhuh... Prestasi keje cik abg pun semakin baik..ehem..so sama2 la kita laksanakan plan kita seterusnya... Perancangan 5 tahun mendatang.. Sekarang masih menunggu surat confirm(ye..dah 4 thn keje pun belum kompem ye kawan2) Okt 2012... Apply for 52...( sbb syarat nak apply kene 5 thn berkhidmat) By that time, nak apply biasiswa staf utk sambung study End of 2013... Sambung study.. 2014-2016...phd Then balik uitm... Pehtu...plan lain plak... Wah...berangan memang sonok...

Sekali kene sound daaaaa...

Harini kene sound dgn bos...

Zarina kene cergas skit..cekgi nak ganti saya plak..

Hua..hua...nak ganti dia tu bila.dia akan sambung belajar dlm september nanti..
Aku nak ganti ape ni..jd ketua gugusan ke...dahla ada ura2 suh aku jd timbalan rektor kt kampus baru...hua..hua..mabuk jawatan aku satgi..yg kelakonye...bkn sbb aku ni bagus sgt..sbb tak nampak org lain yg menonjol kot..huhuh...kene sound dgn bos camtu pun..memang menunjukkan keje aku lembap..heheh...so..azam baru..azam updated setiap mggu kot, kehkeh..ok aku nak wat keje aku je..siapkan...hal perasaan anak2 buah aku ni..tolak ke tepi..masalahnye depa krg perasaan...aku yg berperasaan...huhuh...yela..manala tak berperassan kalau asik kene tentang je dgn anak buah..mestilah aku rasa gak..aku kot yg tak betul...huhuh..setakat ni, aku identify 3 org je yg negatif skit..yg lain bnyk lalang...yg bersemangat 3 org...insyaallah..yg lalang2 ni boleh diajak ke arah yg positif ni..huhuh..aku kene buat plan menyeluruh ni..

Eh..ehe...azam baru aku ape kaitkan dgn attitude anak buah lak..aku la kene cari method camana nak suh cergas..jwpnnnye...jgn tangguh keje...ok..camana nak suh kotivasi sentiasa..suh keje cergas skit..cari sesuatu yg buatkan hepi...aku rasa mood mempengaruhi segala2 nya la kan..cthnye..ade 1 pagi aku mls gile wat keje, mood down sbb duk pk psl anak2 buah tak ske aku dsbnya...pastu dpt call drp sorang lecturer senior ni, dia tanya aku..aritu dia tgk aku pakai ipad duk semak tesis budak..main conteng2 pakai tgn je atas screen..heheh...dia tgk macam seronok..so tanya aku mcm2 psl ipad..plan nak beli dsb...i tell u la..mmg aku sgt berpuas hati dgn adanya ipad ni sbb sgt bantu keje aku..kalau org nak beli ipad ni setakat nak main fb n tgk muvie..memang tak rasa sgtla pekdahnya..masa aku beli ni pun aku mmg akan pastikan mende ni sgt2 berguna utk aku..so, aku memang berkepit dgn mende ni je tiap ari..di mana saja..aku wat keje aku di maana saja..ms tgh minum..masa tggu org..masa lepak bilik rehat..huhuh...so bila ada org berminat dgn cara aku marking tesis student ni n nk beli ipad..aku rassa macam berjasa lak..heheh...yela..sharing psl ilmu..nanti aku nak aja staf2 bwh aku lak marking by softcopy..tp depa pakai pdf jela sbb kt computer bese..lepas borak dgn dr tuh..terus aku bersemangat balik nk wat keje..aku ni perlu disuntik semangat sentiasa la...bila aku sedar aku achieve sesuatu..terus smgt..walaupun perkara kecik..

Ok..senarai keje yg besar2 skit yg aku kene siapkan..

1. Justifikasi n perancangan utk transit student diploma ke pasir gudang
2. Perancangan program luar kampus bagi diploma kej kimia utk org industri...skrg permintaan nak blajo sgt tggi..kami je tak sempat nak penuhi..huhuh..

Semua ni aku pk sorang je weih..nak ajak2 meeting smer sibuk..takde masa..aku bnykkkkkk sgt masa kan...hahah..takpela..dah keje ketua fakulti..nanti bila dah terer..aku nak train org lak..walaupun aku tak pernah di train, blajo2 sndiri jek..takpela..bia la aku train org..bila sampai giliran org lain nanti..dia sambung je..takdela kelam kabut..

K..sambung lenkali..

Buat kerja tak boleh berkira sangat..

Antara halangan2 menjadi ketua adalah meminta org bwhn anda untuk membantu membuat kerja lebih sedikit drp skop keje..melenting ok..terus mintak aku define apa skop keje seorang ajk..heheh..
Nak buat camana..bekerja bersama dengan org bijak pandai..kita pun terpaksa la menebalkan muka jawab balik..dgn penuh rasa rendah diri..aku dah janji pada diri sendiri..i'll tru my best takkan melenting bila menjawab dalam email..sbb lepas tu mesti aku nyesal gile..setakat ini, aku pernah melenting dgn sorang je..heheh..tp kitorang ok je bila jumpa2.. Dlm hati sape tau kan..heheh..tp setakat ini, dia takde dah email bangkang2 dah...setakat ini la kan..heheh..

My ex bos tak puas hati bila aku bg markah skt rendah..i thought 80 is ok for someone who done nothing..takdela nothing..cuma not much la..huhuh..paper tak buat..tak interested dgn research..dia hanya jadi ajk teknikal...aku mmg tak bg sgt jwtn kat dia sbb kononnya dia dah nak sambung phd..tp..takan takde inisiatif nak handle projek ke..respon dlm meeting pun mls..dlm borang skt pun dia tak tulis ape pun dlm ruangan sumbangan pd masyarakat, uitm. Kosong ok..bhgn skt je dia tulis..tu pun tulis tgn je..org lain siap taip berjela2 lampirkan...inisiatif nak dpt markah tu takde...bila dia melenting dlm email..aku terus terang jela prob dia..krg sumbangan pd fakulti..tak buat research..org lain payah nak buat kerja bersama..bkn stkt fakulti dgn cwgn2 lain pun dia dah terkenal dgn keje x sbrp...tahla..aku pun tak faham sgt...berbelas thn jd pensyarah..keje dia macam lecturer baru masuk keje..bes gile aku ngutuk org kan..heheh...logik tak..aku yg aja balik cara buat soalan kat dia..dia ex bos aku ok..dulu aku tanya dia...skrg aku aja dia..pelik ke tak..akutak kisah pun nak aja org..tp bila org tak berkesedaran diri..payah la jugak kan..dia sebenarnya ade sesuatu yg bagus dlm diri dia..ilmu banyak, talent banyak..terer dia ni..degree blaja obersi..tp dia dah jd macam...aku dtg keje..balik keje..tggu pencen...kalau ko cikgu takpela wei..lecturer..ko kene sentiasa develop diri..he is a senior..ajar la kami2 ni...honestly, aku jd ketua ni..aku bukan belaja dgn dia..aku cari bos aku skrg walaupun dia fakulti lain..lain2 aku survive sendiri..n pada zaman pemerintahan dia..lecturer wat keje masing2 ok..nak meeting pun pyh..last skali kitorang buat ale tau..asal jumpa je..kitorang meeting sesama sendiri..heheh..tak penah abis agenda meetingnye..heheh..so skang bila aku jd ketua..susah gile aku nak satukan org sbb budaya kerja awal kitorang ialah wat keje masing2, sgt pasif..dlm meeting takde cdgn sgt..condemn ada..cdgn takde..ehhe..bkn semuala..ada yang aku tgk berpotensi..so, skrg ni aku depend pd derang la jugak utk gerakkan fakulti..dgn harapan, semakin ramai yg ikut jejak langkah org2 yg bersemangat dan berinisiatif ini..kita tinggalkan shj org yg berfikiran negatif dan tanak majukan diri..apetah lagi nak majukan fakulti..huhuh...dlm fakulti aku..ada 3 jenis group..group positif,berinisatif, ada idea2..... Group kedua..negatif..kuat bangkang..takyahla buat lebih2 sgt..kita bnyk keje ah ni..cukupla dgn apa yg kita ada skrg..tak payahla pening2 kepala sgt..kita buat mende2 simple udah...group ketiga lak..we go with flows..org bg keje..buat, ada arahan kita ikut..ada cdgn?xde..bangkang idak..sokong?ok je..huhuh...

Eh, aku nak cite psl apa td ek..ooo...kisahnya aku mintak 2 lecturer ni yang dilantik ajk jadual waktu untuk tlg staf sorang ni key in jadual..kejenye bnyk n remeh..staf ni lak baru blaka..tp ada masalah misscommunication skit..aku ckp kat staf ni..u pegi bilik lecturer ni..keja bersama dia..maksud aku..staf ni buat keje..sambil2 tanya la kt lecturer ni...lecturer tuh buat jela keje dia..skarg musim sibuk marking..smer org bz..nak wat camana..skang juga musim buat jadual..huhuh..depa lak faham..aku suh depa wat keje bersama2 all the time..jd lecturer ni takleh wat keje dia..sbb buat keje bersama dari awal...so, dia rasa tak puas hati tp tak berani bersuara..aku lak selalu folow up..tanya progress..dia ckp..dia sedang siapkan bersama staf ni..aku plak pandai2 wat anggapan..wooo..dia willing nak tog staf tu la kot..pastu aku pun bg arahan..agih2 kanla keje sekali dgn lect. sorang lagi..so dia pun agihkan la..lect, ni buat gak skit..pastu dia meletup..ckp napa lect. kene buat keje ni..ni keje staf..suh aku define keje ajk jadual waktu...aku pun baru faham..derang bukan volunteer nak tlg..tp buat sbb aku arahkan..so depa memendam rasa..so aku mintak maafla atas arahan aku yg x jelas..tp aku mintak jugak depa tlg tgk n pantau keje staf ni..tp dia masih menjawab..nak tlg ape lagi?bia jelah dia siapkan..br kita semak..aku jd pns la jugak..kalau lecturer sorang lagi yg persoalkan aku tak kisah sgt..ni ex bos aku yg sgt berpengalaman dlm masalah buat jadual ni..tp mgkin sebelum ni tak amik kisah sgt kot..so dia tak nampak mende tu masalah...aku mintak pantau je..bleh buat drp bilik masing2...tgk skrin kdg2 je...sambil2 la buat keje masing2...jadual ni..kalau drp awal ada silap..baik buat terus..bila ko dah buat semuanya..nampak cantik tah..skali ade silap susun atur skit..anih ko kene betulkan jugak yg lain2nya..cara aku..aku lebih ske betulkan mende drp awal walaupun remeh temeh drp betulkan hasil kerja yg dh rosak..serabut nak betulkan..yg lg bes..dia bg komen tuh..last sekali dia sebut..walaupun saya tau saya merisikokan markah skt saya kerana komen dan tidak memberi kerjasama...yg ni aku panas...adakah bermaksud sape2 yg kritik aku..aku akan potong markah skt dia?even lefturer sorang tuh yang berperang dgn aku dlm email pun aku tak potong markah dia sbb dia kuat bangkang..tp kalau x beri kerjasama dlm urusan fakulti..mgkin krg skitla markah dia..tp in this case, memang ternyata bkn keje lefturer..kalau dia pun tak buat pun aku takleh paksa...aku lupe..bkn semua org berfikiran macam aku..aku kalau dlm keadaan memaksa..kalau aku kene tlg staf tu buat jadual tu sekali, aku buat..walaupun tak sepenuhnya...at least bantu dia..tahle..mgkin sebagai ketua...aku selalu pk apa akibatnya..org lain tak ske amik tau psl akibat2 ni..so..halangan aku adalah..aku takleh expect org akan fleksible kan diri..n kdg2 bg lebih skit..so mana tau akan datang..org akan bg lebih skit utk bantu kita kan..huhuh..

Tp aku jawab email dengan penjelasan drp pihak aku..pehtu kalau nak jawab lagi aku mls lyn dah..tp last2 adela selit gak skit pulang paku buah keras skit..kehkeh..

Bes gila merapu dlm blog yg telah diprivate kan ini..korang tak faham sgt ape aku cite kan..takpe..memang bertujuan utk merapu pun..heheh

First time being admitted

I was having practical students visiting trip to penang and perlis on wednesday and thursday. So we stayed at this hotel at butterworth which i booked via www.booking.com...my husband slept earlier on that night since he was so exhausted for being a single driver..he hates the way i drive...heheh...our plan to jjcm also being cancelled because we were so lazy to find the way to the best eating places...finally makan kt mamak je..huhuh..i slept at about 2 am... And woke up about 6.30... When i was in my bath...i can see that my bath effluents were reddish..i knew that i was having this "heavy bleeding" from my uterus..well this is not the first time..i think, its the fourth one during the 6 months back. Why was i not panicked?yes..because its not the first time and also, i used to seing doctors from different places...and they told me its normal and might be because i was stressed and imbalance hormone..

Usually i will feel something large comes out from my vagina..heavy bleeding at once...by that time, i know im in trouble if im not wearing my pad or if i am at the ofice...i cant remember very well the experiences for the previous 2 earlier... For the third time, it was on my 6th day of my period at 30th jan about 4 pm while i was having this conversation with one of my lecturer...still manage to continue our discussion as long as i sit still..heheh..when she was out of my room..i was not so sure of what to do..if i stand up, the bloods and clots will flushed down...camno ni...anyway, i still need to move, right...luckily im still wearing my pad...when i stand, there was a large clots flows down from my vagina...i walked slowly to the toilet..afraid that the blood will fall off to the floor...while i was carefully slowly walking, i can feel that the bloods started to flows down through my legs..to the feet...so, while i was in the toilet..the large clots falls down into the toilet bowl and i was not looking how large was it..i dont want to know...i knew that more will come...finished up washing...wearing a new pad...on the way back to my room..there were 2 drops of my blood on the floor..nasib baik bkn spjg jalan...i packed all my stuffs, shut down the laptop...punch card and heading towards home...afraid that my new pad cant afford to hold the bloods that flows endlessly..macam air paip...at home...i spent most of the time in the toilet..and change my pad every half an hour..it took about 4-5 pads being used..finally i was just lay down when i felt that the flows are decreasing..i cancelled my meeting with the students on that night, that's why i remember the date..huhuh..i choose not to seeing any doctor since i have met 3 doctors regarding to this issue and all of them didnt think that it is a serious case..i planned to make a follow up medical check..the doctor suggest the medical check up should be on 21st day since the first day period..so we starts counting..then, i have this fourth one on my eighth day of my period cycle...my normal period is 7-9days..this time, the clots are larger.. And the liquid blood are neverending flows...i cancelled my appointment visit to the factory and call the receptionist to add one more day to stay in the hotel..cancelled the booking fornthe next hotel at alor star...still need to pay because of the last minute cancelling...adeh..what to do...i cant move around with this heavy bleeding...since 6.30 till afternoon, it doesnt shows any sign of decreasing...i changed my pad more than 5 times...it should be more than that, but i was so tired so i choose to lay down a lot...that might decrease the flows..but whenever i felt the large clots going out...still need to go to the toilet to wash it out..because the pad cant hold it..until i starts to feel dizzy and feels like im gonna fall...so i called my husband...u know what, previoulsy, my husband didnt see this as a serious thing...because, we had going through this experience for few times..so he thought that this was normal...but when i starts to feel dizzy and nk pengsan...he starts to act seriously..i never had this moment before...but i knew that i was lost for few seconds..pengsan sekejap kot..my husband woke me up..he bought adult diapers..so that i can move with this heavy flows..err...first time wearing the adult diapers...felt like wanna cry at that time..then, we plan to go to the nearest hospital..Bagan specialist hospital..but by this time, i can feel that the flows are decreasing...ok, for your info i tak sakit langsung during this heavy flows..except finally being dizzy tuh..And tak larat...

I met Dr Low...he put a apetah namanya...inside my vagina..sakitla jugak..to see inside my cervics..there are a few clots remained..then pull out the thing, then using his fingers to check the vagina frontier..theres nothing suspicious thing..so he said he can stop the bleeding, and cuci all the clots...but if i would like to know the cause of this bleeding, i need use optical camera to go through inside my uterus..it might be nothing..might be because of hormone..might be because of fibroid...might be because im having too thick of uterus wall...from the scanning session...also not much things to look out...i need to get sample from the inside fo further session..since im not from the local..he suggest that i do that when im home at the nearest hospital..it will be easier for follow up sessions...and it would be better when the bloods are dried out..so i stayed in the ward for one night..that was my first time admitted to a hospital...first time for IV needle...first time sleeping in a hospital bed..errr...its not that bad at all..ehehehe..luckily...tak jd cuci...dr decided that i just need to stop the bleeding...and it stops...my hg is 9.5...normal is about 12... Also my blood pressure is 96...quite low...no wonder la nk pitam..i lost too much blood..

To be continued...

Umah baru

Kampus baru akan dibuka di bukit besi..
Hangpa penah masuk bukit besi?
Kawasan felda kelapa sawit... Harapnya akan membangunla kat situ mcm parit buntar.. Buat masa ni...pasaraya kecik pun takde ok...huhuh..
Bandar terdekat adalah dungun, 45 min drp bukit besi...
Teruk sgt ke bunyinyer.. Heheh..
Ala lebih kurang je macam duk kat tronoh dulu kan... Hidup je kita kan...
Bes aper...kita outing ke ipoh sebulan sekali je.. Pastu sekali outing beli brg beplastik2 mcm baru masuk asrama.. Huhuh..
Tp aku ske life aku kt tronoh..
Eh lenkali la citer psl tronoh..bnyk je sweet memories nak citer..masa tuh aku tak kenai sgt si anis ni.. Heheh

Back to the topic bukit besi..
Fakulti aku je yg akan pindah ke bukit besi ni...
Mechanical akan di create kat kampus tu nanti..
Banyak gile perancangan akan dibuat kt kampus tu nanti..
So aku sbg ketua fakulti kt kampus dungun, bila pindah ke sana,akan jd ala2 ketua kampus.. Atutnyer....dahla nak manage lecturer 16 org ni pun rasa macam haper je...kalau jd ketua kampus... Kerusi meja,bilik kuliah pun ko kene amik tau, huhuh.. Masih berdoa supaya aku x jd timbalan rektor ( ketua bg kampus) ataupun ketua pusat pengajian bg sains dan teknologi ( since boss aku dah nak sambung belajo).... Bnyk lagi aku nak kene improve utk manage fakulti sendiri... Camana nak manage fakulti2 lain...skrg ni, kalau kene marah dgn supplier pun aku pass kat boss aku, camana nk independent, heheh..

So sbg ketua fakulti, aku pi survey2 la kawasan bukit besi tuh..
Haiyo... Nak cari tumah sewa pun payah, camana nak cari rumah utk dibeli..
Kalau nak duk sini, kena beli tanah, buat rumah la jwbnye..
Ramai lecturer fakulti aku dah beli umah kt dungun, so depa nak berulang je..
Larat ke nak berulang 45 min pegi, 45 min balik..
Since aku tak beli rumah lagi.. Try gak survey..
Cari dlm mudah.my..setahun aku cari kt mudah..sbb cari sambil2 je..
Sekali jumpe...



Ok i know.. Umah ni nampak mcm usang skit... Ala boleh cat2 elok2 cantikla...umah ni ada bhgn kayu skit... Bebile ade duit nanti, bolehla renovate... Tp umah ni besar.. Kira oraitla.. 3 bilik, 1 bilik air.. Since uman ni besar... Boleh je nak wat 1 lg bilik plus bilik air..oh ye, blkg umah dpt extra tanah rezab.. Aku tak sure brp luas sbb tak masuk pun tanah tuh sbb dipagarkan..yg pasti dah ada pokok durian 10 btg, rambutan 3 pokok, n pokok2 lain.. Reban ayam pun ada.. Heheh.. I like.. Sbb mcm kt kg2.. N smer ni worth rm125k... Orait kan harganya.. Kt dungun ni umah besar tuh paling murah 250k.. Besenye mmg 300k kalau banglo...

Loan dah diluluskan.. Tinggal urusan guaman je tak setel lagi.. Ala, kampus sana mungkin beroperasi nov nanti.. Sementara ni.. Dah ada penyewa duk umah tu.. Kira oraitla tu.. Bila kami nak duk situ nanti.. Mebi just cat2 jela dulu kot..tanak renovate ape2 pun.. Sbb aku plan nak sambung belajar..so.. Its a good time to have a house as an asset.. Kan..